Who We are Life Clarification Process Monthly Articles HolisticHarmony.com Store Interact Membership

Back To Index


Life Stories and Lessons
S21 SITUATIONS & LESSONS NO. 21 - STRENGTH AND FEAR - EMOTION AND LOGIC
Print


A few years ago Aggeliki had an experience in which

she almost fainted in the center of the City.

She felt helpless and fearful that she would lose her senses among all those strangers. On the one hand she feared being humiliated by losing her senses and thus showing weakness. On the other, she ways afraid that these strangers might not help her and that she would be in danger.

From that day she has not been able to travel outside the house without her husband. Although she was a dynamic and even rebellious woman, she is now experiencing the humiliation of fear, weakness and inability, something which she tries to cover up except for immediate family and very few close friends.

Aggeliki had always rejected weakness in her self and in others, and now she was ashamed and rejected herself for fearing and not being able to move about on her own. She fabricated various stories to cover up her fear to others.

For the first year, her husband, Spyros, understood and accommodated her in this problem. He took her where she wanted and gave her special attention.

As time passed, Aggeliki identified more and more with her fear and became ever more dependent on Spyros. This dependency caused her to need to ensure that Spyros would be always with her. On the one hand she would try to please him in every way satisfying all his needs so that he would happy with her. On the other, her insecurity caused her have crises of panic and anger when she feared that he would not be there, or when she feared that was not pleased with her.

All this had two major effects on Spyros. One was that he was pushed more and more into the role of the strong, capable and rational. Through he connected barrel effect, Aggeliki expressed their combined emotions and Spyros their combined logic. Aggeliki became the epitome of emotion and Spyros the incarnation of logic. Spyros would at times undermine Aggeliki's self image by telling her that her thinking was not clear and that she was not logical. This added to Aggeliki's self rejection and fear.

The second result was that Spyros began to feel very suppressed. He loved Aggeliki, but he was with her continuously and this was tiring him. He began to talk about separating and started looking at other women. This made Aggeliki even more fearful, and subconsciously caused her to identify even more with the role of the weak and unable, so as to keep his attention and ensure his presence.

She had now come to believe subconsciously that he would be this close to her only if she had a problem. Getting well now, also held the fear of losing all the attention and support she was getting from Spyros.

Now Aggeliki had two major fears. She feared going out by herself and also losing Spyros. Spyros was feeling suppressed and depressed. This was not the creative and enjoyable life he had imagined he would have with Aggeliki.

What could their lessons be?

Aggeliki: Does she need to have more faith in the Divine so as to feel safe traveling wherever she wants by her self? Does she need to accept her weakness first? Is her lesson that she is also safe without Spyros? Or perhaps that Spyros will love her and be with her even is she does not have a problem? Does she need to learn that there are situations when she needs to use her logic to override her emotions?

Spyros: Could his lesson be that his freedom is internal? Or that he will not lose his self worth or self control if he allows himself to feel and express his emotions? Perhaps he too needs to believe in Aggeliki's power to move about alone, so that he can begin gently but firmly push her in this direction? Does he need to learn to respect Aggeliki's emotional states as natural and a part of her growth process.

By working with chapters 12 to 19 they will be able to find solutions.



Back To Index
About Us | Terms of Use | Secure Shopping | Site Map | Contact | Login

webmaster@holisticharmony.com © 2000-2002 Robert Najemy of Holistic Harmony Publications
www.HolisticHarmony.com. All right reserved. This site is best viewed with IE 5.0 - 800 x 600.